ToO

So, you know, I wonder... do people notice or care what they say anymore? People seem to think I've left... and that the reason I left was because of not being mod.

What if those who are both boards knew that the reason I left was more because I'm depressed, swamped with HW, and have a life that happens to be headed in the horribly WRONG direction? If I said that not being picked was a factor, but not at all the entire picture. I don't want to spill my whole life to people. I never mentioned modship in my post about leaving... ever. It was part of it, but I've started getting depressed again, and school is just coming at me at all sides. I just want to get out of this small town I'm forced to live in and go back home to my VERY small town, my HOME, and see my parents, be there for my daddy on his 50th birthday, and see my two friends that are my only friends I have in this world, Shay and Brittni. I'm missing Timothy a lot these days, and he's home right now, and I won't see him till who-knows-when next. I have no friends at my new school, and I'm horribly homesick. Oh, and I've so far disappointed my parents because I have a GPA of 3.84 in school, and I'm not keeping up with my HW very well. Plus, I'm sick, I'm making my sister highly annoyed with me... plus, I'm not intune with God, so, I don't know what to do about my feelings for Ricky, which started me on my second bout of depression... and I know I'm jsut not doing well.

So, how's that for an answer why I'm trying to leave for a little bit from the ToO? Is it much to ask to not spill my life to someone and just live with the answer I give? Or does everyone have to assume that it's because I didn't get to be a mod, again? It's not the end of the world!

Sorry if this isn't were this is supposed to go... I don't know this place well... and I'm kinda depressed, angry, annoyed, tired, and hurt right now. I'm just.... sorry.

COmment if you wish... I could sure use the help in sorting some things out... I jsut had to rant.